The Beacon
As a Reflector, you operate differently than the majority of society.
This alone can be a big source of conditioning and shame. Because over 70% of the population can rely on consistent energy. For you, as a Reflector, there might be many wounds in the authentic expression of your self, formed through homogenization.
Being a "non-energetic" Energy Type can bring up many obstacles and resistance in your life. Especially if you don't know or haven't been brought up understanding the expression of your aura.
Watching and feeling everybody's fueled energy around you (and projecting this energy onto yourself) might have fooled you (especially talking to my Energetic Reflectors here). You can indeed work at the same speed as all the other Energy Types. BUT be aware that you were not made this way. To sum it up: This is not the point of your existence.
As a Reflector, you operate energetically totally different from most of the other Energy Types. And this is correct for you. You have to learn to honor the ebbs and flows of your energetic cycles.
As children, we have a deep understanding of how things should work. Back then, we didn't have the vocabulary to express certain truths, but our kinesthetic knowledge allowed us to absorb all the unspoken information.
Because of their different energy, Reflector children can be slower in developing (especially Mental Reflectors). You might have been left vulnerable to the unrequited expectations of eager parents who needed to over-identify with their children's success at a young age.
This can leave you feeling like something about you is inherently wrong or that you are inadequate. Especially when your parents' expectations of your developmental stages didn't align with their predictions.
Wisdom
One of your biggest needs is to receive recognition for your infinite wisdom and sensibility. You can't help but live out your unique way of probing and tasting the different personalities and understanding everyone's way of doing things.
Because you feel into everyone, you might find it confusing to not have a defined way of expressing yourself, especially in times like now, when individualism and "niching down" seems to be the answer to everyone's success.
If you try to fit into a mold that you might stick to in order to have a sense of stability and safety, your "Not-self" Theme of disappointment can arise.
This feeling of not allowing yourself to flow freely between characters, feelings, and points of view can bring up issues around feeling different, separation, low self-worth, and depression.
If you are living too far out in your conditioned life and everything feels difficult and resistant - and you are maybe even physically sick or suffer from poor mental health - reframing your capacity to move and adapt yourself to every new situation, environment, and person you meet can be an important step to overcome your current situation and life lesson.
The main point is: that your real life is a direct reflection of your inner world. If you feel let down because nobody is seeing the wisdom you carry, you can start liberating yourself from who you think you have to be in order to be loved and accepted. Start tuning into how you move around people and in environments, and once you let go of anything that you are hiding to define you: what you wear, what you eat ... people will feel magnetically drawn towards you.
Another way how being a Reflector can create a shadow aspect in you is in your strategy: to wait a lunar cycle.
Our society operates on the premise that you have to go after what you want and you have to do it now.
In this fast-paced society where everything should have been done by yesterday, taking your time to feel into what fits your true authentic self can feel scary.